I Want to Return To the Jewish Heritage of My Ancestors But I Don’t Know Where to Begin

Dear Jew in the City,

My great-grandparents were Jews from Kiev who emigrated to Romania before second World War. Both my grandmother and mother were secular people. I always knew about my heritage because my mother was very attached to her grand- mother and often speaks about her. Apparently, she was somewhat observant. I grew up as a secular European as well. My father with whom I lived for a few years is an Arab. The reason I’m writing to you is that some months ago I came across an article about Judaism which resonated with something inside of me. And then I became curious to read more. Since then I contemplated the idea to return to the religion of my great-grandparents but there’s still a lot of hesitation because I don’t know how I could adapt since I am very European. And I’m also thinking if my Arab heritage is going to be a problem and people are going to hate me or feel threatened by me. We have three synagogues in our city but two are closed and I don’t know about the third one. I was thinking to see a rabbi and ask his opinion but I doubt we have a rabbi in our city. Will I have to convert if I consider to return? And is the fact that my father is Arabic going to disturb people? Do you have any advice on what should I do?


Dear Ann,

Let’s get straight to the punchline: If your mother and all the mother’s before her were Jewish, then you are 100% Jewish and do not require a conversion. So, welcome home – we’re thrilled that you’re part of the Jewish people! Your story is much more common than you might realize. Not only have I personally heard many similar stories, right before I received your email, I read a vignette in a wonderful book called “Listening to God,” by Rabbi Shlomo Riskin that is extremely apropos. Rabbi Riskin meets a Russian man whose family has been away from Jewish observance for many generations, but this man, after randomly reading some verses in the Torah one day in a public library, is stirred somewhere deep inside and feels compelled to begin a journey back to the ways of his ancestors. Rabbi Riskin tells him that what he experienced is actually prophecized in the Torah! In the book of Deuteronomy, as Moses explains to the Israelites what their future will look like, including a destruction and exile, he makes them a promise: “When it will be difficult for you, the words of the Torah will find you…and you will return to God…because God is a God of love and compassion…and He will not forget the covenant He has made with your fathers.”

So I want you to know that you are experiencing something much bigger than yourself. Stories like yours remind me of the uniqueness of our people and the truth of our Torah. Now in terms of where to begin, you must keep in mind that every ba’al teshuva (returnee to observance) is very assimilated into the culture that they were living in before they returned to their Jewish roots. I was very American in my pre-Orthodox days, and frankly I still am! Have I been able to continue doing every last thing I did before I was religious? Or course not. But I never felt like I lost the “me” in the process. It was always about creating a better version of myself – not a different one. And that’s what I recommend that others do. Don’t worry about becoming the “typical” religious Jew. Find ways to be true to yourself and to your heritage simultaneously.

In terms of your having an Arab father, if you look very Arabic or if your last name sounds very Arabic, it might make you stand out a bit. There are Sephardic Jews – Jews who come from Middle Eastern countries – so people might assume that your looks and name are due to a Sephardic heritage and not think twice. Some people might be rude about it! Not that they’d feel threatened by you or want to offend you, but more that some might be curious as to why you look different or your name sounds different. I’ve heard from Jews over the years who look “atypical” in one way or another, and unfortunately, many have had encounters with people who are curious or ask inappropriate questions. But I’ll tell you this – although not blending in perfectly might make your journey back home a bit more challenging, it should not prevent you from reclaiming what is rightfully yours. If you did let the stupid people come between you and your heritage, well then the stupid people would win. And what is on the line here is much too important to get ruined by insensitive people. So, like I said, I don’t know if you’re being “different” will present you with any unique challenges, but even if it does, I hope that God gives you the strength to endure it as there is so much beauty and depth awaiting you.

Finding a local contact is ideal. I assume you’re still in Romania, but I don’t know where exactly. If you email me your exact location, I will find you the closest observant Jewish community in your area so that you can spend Shabbos there and experience Jewish holidays in a community. If there are no commutable religious communities, thankfully the world is a much smaller place these days than it used to be. You can easily sign up for PartnersinTorah.org where you will be matched with a free study partner who will teach you any Jewish topic of your choice over the phone up to an hour once a week.There is also a great website called Naaleh.com which offers Jewish classes online on a variety of topics. (They have a sister site NaalehCollege.com which offers Jewish classes that you can get college credit for.)

In addition to learning, another important step to take is to begin to observe some mitzvos (commandments) like trying to eat a little more kosher, by refraining from pork products or shellfish. Lighting Shabbos candles once a week (you can find the times to light for your city online) is a beautiful way to bring the light and peace of Shabbos into your life and only takes a few minutes to do. And finally, observant Jews all over the world begin their days the same exact way. Upon opening our eyes, there is a one line prayer that we say, “Mo-deh ani l’faneh-cha melech chay v’kayam, sh’he-che-zar-tah bee nish-ma-tee, b’chem-lah rabah, emuna-techa” which means, “I thank You, living, eternal King, for You have mercifully restored my soul within me; abundant is Your faithfulness.” This prayer is an incredible way to begin the day. It is a reminder that God believes in you and woke you up that morning to live a purposeful existence. Please let me know if you have any more questions and I wish you much success and happiness as you embark on this exciting journey.

All the best,

Allison (aka Jew in the City) 

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  • Avatar photo Elisheva says on January 10, 2013


  • Avatar photo Esther says on January 10, 2013

    Thanks tor sharing!!! I have a cousin that is secular, you inspired me to do outreach and let her enjoy her heritage!!

  • Avatar photo Debee says on January 10, 2013

    Wow! Amazingly put!!!! What a refreshing view.

  • Avatar photo Queenie says on January 11, 2013

    Thank you for thoughtfully addressing her question regarding her Arabic heritage and her hesitation to seek out her Jewish heritage due to it. Unfortunately, she may encounter ignorant people and I hope she has the fortitude to keep on seeking out her Jewish heritage. Like you said, what is on the line is too important to get ruined by ignorant people.

    It’s an exciting journey and I wish her all the best. B’Hatzlacha!

    • Avatar photo Kullenberg says on April 12, 2024

      My blood as been hidden by well meaning family , whom made various conversions to many faiths, so as not to stand out.

      I was always told blend in, well being light skinned, curly aburn hair, and hazel eyes, that is until I sun bathed anyways. Always knowing I didn’t belong, that I was different… I seen, knew, understood things unlike the children, around about me. Seemingly uneducated, struggling in the sea of life.

      After much digging, I’ve found my bloodline! I want to come home to be who I am. No more pretending to be one of them. As a rose among piercing thorns. Now with the rise of chaos. I fear this new founded knowledge. As a young widow, dwelling in the south I just want to come home, where I belong.. Its not here please advise.

      Any advice?
      Love to alles.

      • Avatar photo Allison Josephs says on April 12, 2024

        Look for a local Chabad in your area and reach out to partnersintorah.org. Good luck!

  • Avatar photo Miranda says on March 5, 2013

    Thank you so much for posting this! the sender and Allison, it has made me quite interested and I just signed up for the Partnersintorah.org website and set up weekly phone appointments!
    I have been very Americanized and never grew up with a set religion (even though my mother was Jewish, so I know I’m 100% Jewish!), but I can’t wait to re-connect with my religion!

  • Avatar photo Adrienne says on March 14, 2013

    I have a similar situation where I want to return to my Jewish heritage. The only problem is that my maternal grandmother’s father was Jewish, but not her mother. My grandmother wasn’t raised Jewish (she didn’t even know her father was Jewish, it was a family secret). So I guess that makes me not Jewish, but I just feel a really strong connection and pull to it. Any advice?

    • Avatar photo Allison says on March 18, 2013

      My advice is to learn. A great place to start is “Becoming a Jew” by Maurice Lamm. We do not prosethelytize, but we also welcome in sincere converts with open arms. See if converting is something that interests you once you learn more. Best of luck!

  • Avatar photo Amy says on March 24, 2013

    I’m in a similar vote to Adrienne. My mom is a WASP. My dad had a gene test done to see if he had Jewish ancestry, because there was a lot of strong circumstantial evidence that we did – and sure enough, it came back 23% semitic genes. Unfortunately, we don’t know who in our family was Jewish, it’s not been the practiced faith of my father’s family for generations. And in any case, even if HE were Jewish through his mother and grandmother, I wouldn’t be, because of my own mother’s heritage. While I’ve always felt very Jewishly inclined (for a protestant girl) I find it a bummer that in a day and age with gene testing I’m still not considered Jewish by any actual Jews. I understand why the rule about matrilineal descent is in place, but I guess I don’t feel like we have to strictly follow that any more to acknowledge Jewish heritage. I had briefly considered converting, but in the end, my feelings/beliefs about Jesus make me a non-candidate. So I’m stuck being a very Jewish protestant girl. LOL. (I even took a quiz about what religion I should be – and it said Jewish – but again, the whole Jesus thing makes me a non-candidate). *sigh* . . . I’m stuck observing from the fringes.

    • Avatar photo Rabbi Pinchos Woolstone says on June 27, 2014

      why do you seek out Jewish outreach learning programs within the wider orthodox community and see how interested you become.
      Maybe conversion is an option or path for you.
      I can advise if you so desire

  • Avatar photo leila shipman says on March 28, 2013

    I too found out my mother was jewish, as was her mother. However no one else in my family is happy about it and none want me going to Israel.
    Funny thing is they would do almost anything to keep me from going. Im not anti American or anything, it has been an interesting place to grow up in. I just want to go home to Israel.

  • Avatar photo Terry says on October 2, 2013

    I feel like all the rules are very silly. What difference does it make if it’s mother or father? Great grandmother or great grandfather? In the end none of ÿøū Jews can be traced back to the twelve tribes, so ÿøū orthodox Jews need to stop feeling so proud and being so awful to people of Jewish heritage no matter how far back it goes. I met an orthodox with orange hair and freckles and it almost made me cry. What makes him anymore Jewish than someone with Jewish grandparents? Please enlighten me.

    • Avatar photo Rabbi Jack Abramowitz says on October 10, 2013

      We have to disagree there; we believe that we can be traced back to the 12 Tribes. (If we didn’t, there’s a LOT of stuff throughout history we’d have just said “no thanks” to!) Accordingly, we have to follow the Torah’s rules regarding matrilineal descent just as we follow the laws about keeping kosher and the Sabbath. No malice is intended to those with Jewish fathers and non-Jewish mothers – believe me, things would be a lot easier for everyone if we could just consider them Jewish as well! But we have to follow the rules we have and not make up our own.

  • Avatar photo barb says on October 18, 2013

    Adopted. Adopted parents died. Found my birth mother in my 30’s. She told me I am Jewish. I am confused, disorientated. But I feel the only way is Torah. I feel ike I am climbing upsteam to find my way back home. Where is my tribe???? I NEED YOU!


    • Avatar photo barbara stoll says on July 3, 2014

      I had to reread your letter. Very wise, and I will do as Hashem sees fit. And Mercy be on my soul. Thank you for the prayer!!! Some of are lost-ones. Deep inside we KNOW who we are but our seeds are so scattered we struggle to find our way. For now I will talk to the “trees” and tend my small garden. And I will wait……..

      All my Love.

  • Avatar photo Donna says on March 10, 2015

    I have always associated myself with my Father’s side of my family where ancestry was considered. They know their lineage back to pre-Mayflower in this country as well as to England. They are WASP and protestant. My father converted to Catholicism for my Mother when they married. Now, whilst doing research on her side of the family I have found out that My mother’s Mother (my Grandmother) though raised Catholic has jewish lineage on both her Mother and Father’s side. They come from Michigan and the ancestry seems to cross from Canada. I don’t know when my Jewish ancestry ‘converted’ to Catholicism or if it was due to a need to ‘hide’ or simply due to my great great grandmother being Jewish and her husband French Canadian (Catholic) so she simply converted. Either way, it is all new to me. I have Jewish friends but never really discussed religion nor anything of that sort. On my own, I returned to Protestant (Episcopalian) on my own once I was out of the house and at University.
    I attended the University of Michigan and remember there be so many Jewish associations as well as the areas of S. Michigan where I was raised was very Jewish.
    I mentioned my recent discovery to a friend who is Jewish and she told me because it is through my Mother and grandmother and great grandmother that that makes me ‘automatically’ Jewish. Is this true?
    It’s odd because I joined the Protestant version of Christianity because I felt the Catholic faith was just not for me. And yet still only sporadically attended and never, even my other cousins and nieces and nephews, felt very akin to Christianity. Most of us don’t go or even consider ourselves Christians.
    Now, I am wondering is this a ‘call’ as I am reading here, to my true faith and people?
    But, unlike Christianity, I have never heard of Jewish faith inviting others into their religion. But, if I am a Jew because of my maternal heritage, do I have the right to attend a synagogue? And if so, how do I go about it? And how would I make up for all the lost education that I know Jewish children go through?
    I feel very lost and not sure where to turn. I just happened to stumble across this post whilst searching the web. Any help would be greatly appreciated.
    Signed, “Am I a Jew or Not?’

    • Avatar photo Rabbi Jack Abramowitz says on March 11, 2015

      Are you actually Jewish? Could be. It’s true that if your mother’s mother’s mother all the way back is Jewish then so are you but the reliability of the information has to be evaluated. “Here’s my maternal grandmother’s ketubah (Jewish marriage contract)” – that’s very strong proof. “My mitochondrial DNA says I’m Jewish” – not so much. So what information do you have on your great-grandmother being Jewish? The strength of the evidence will make a difference.

      You should get in touch with a local Orthodox rabbi – though he may have to consult with someone of a higher degree of expertise. I know that Allison was going to contact you directly to help you locate a community. I suggest you share your research with the rabbi and see if it meets the criteria to prove Jewishness.

      As far as “calling” people – we accept converts but we don’t recruit them. Sincere and motivated people can become Jewish – if you’re not Jewish, you can always look into that. (If you are Jewish, there would be no need.) Either way, you could attend a synagogue. You can always just show up but you may wish to call ahead and let them know that you recently found out you were Jewish and could use a hand navigating the service – they may be able to set you up with someone to assist you.

      To catch up on a Jewish education, I suggest starting with reliable online resources and books from reputable publishers like ArtScroll and Feldheim. If you are able to conclude that you are Jewish, Partners in Torah can set you up with a study partner.


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